Geeze

This is just it

I'll hear you
See you together
It'll just be this

I want it and
I don't deserve it

Still today
Do it to me today
Kill me today

Or give me that affection
That laugh
Those kisses
I'm so fucking selfish

I hate being this this this
Animal

I'll die this animal
I breathe as this animal
I'll for sure die as this one

Next:

I'm not him
I'm not a man

I don't have the blue eyes
I don't have the cock

I can barely watch your desperation from here
He barely wants you

Put me to sleep
Today

Jeeze

I'm gonna go to bed

Drink my tonic
I wish I was able to kill myself

What Kind?

What kind of fool am I?

everything i want is in front of me..
in its tantilizing form.

unable to connect,
the atmosphere is so thick
it wins the attention.
it won your attention/

what game is this?
what game?
i dont want to play this
how do i quit?

can i quit?



this cant be love.
I dont experience love.


I wouldnt want me as a lover,
i dont want you as a lover.


when? how?

i dont want to see this

i wont witnnest this.

its blinded me.
i can indulge...then filled with embarrasment in that one moment.
what do i know? what do i need?
can i just pass today?
what about tomorrow

just get it over with.

end me.

not ever. not once have i been able to deal.

how dare i. how dare i fall in love with you.
what a wreck.
 what a mess.

I deserve your poison
i deserve every part of your unsatisfaction.

kill me today
kill me yesterday.

this is poisoning my fucking soul
im vile
im selfish
kill me tonight

i want to eat only you.
this is why i need that shot

today bitch
right now you fucking bitch

i cant satisfy anything in this chasim known as your fucking holes

Just eat me alive and leave nonthing

dont leave a drop of me



FUCKING TAKE IT ALL.